"It takes a long time to recover when something bad happens. It takes years. And even after two years you still stop, and think and get sad and get angry and feel sick about it all. So why knowing this is going to eventually happen, do people still set themselves up for that kind of pain?"
This was written on October 23rd 2008.
This isn't about the same thing as before. This was actually in regards to a friendship, a turbulant, difficult friendship that despite everything has stood the test of time... I now know exactly why we set ourselves up for that kind of pain, because theres the chance that the pain won't come.. sure I still expect this friendship to end at some point because all good things come to an end but this boy, this friend is amazing and I am so glad I persisted with it. All the mind games, the lost sleep, the annoying texts/calls it was all worth it. The pain hasnt reached me yet and its over 12. Maybe the pain won't ever come, maybe it will.. but by seeting ourselves up for that pain we experience the many highs along the way.
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