Here is part of an old blog of mine, From my myspace dated March 23 2009
"had a dream the other night, I was in a friends car, we were cruising and i got a call. A call from someone who used to mean alot to me and he asked me to come see him. So as my friend dropped me off i was shaking and he said, "why are you shaking?" my reply was "I'm about make a big mistake..." There's more to this dream but its not really relevant at this point... My point or my question rather is, why do we conciously set ourselves up to get hurt, why do we willingly make mistakes if we know before hand that they are mistakes?"
Do you wanna know the funny part about this dream.. it came true (partially) about 6 weeks later. Re-reading this reminded me of that dream which I can still remember vividly. 6 weeks after my dream I made the mistake of going back to someone. It was a huge mistake, I got hurt AGAIN but I wouldn't trade it for the world... Those 5 and a half months were amazing and things didn't work out but the memories will last me forever.
I think I have the answer to my previous question... We do it because it's not about what happens after, it's not about being hurt its about experiencing the good and accepting the bad that comes along with it. I knew I was going to get hurt, even in my dream I said it was a mistake... but its a mistake i will make again and again given the opportunity.
Re-reading old blogs is great, you tend to forget about alot of things and this is a great way to jog your memory... In the coming days/ weeks I'll re visit my old blogs and try and answer some of the questions I previously asked... hopefully 12 months has been enough time to learn a few things.
Goodnight Lovers. Goodbye Haters.
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