wow.

"i don't have any people on there who negatively effect my life."

wow. For nearly 4 years I've been there. Through the good and the bad. I know we were or are toxic for one another. We are, it's a fact. tumultuous. Thats the word that describes us best but I never once thought I was "negatively effecting your life" It's funny you say that it really is because everyone knows I changed because of you. I lost so many people but I always said that I didn't need them if I had you because you were pretty much number 1.

In the last four years it's been impossible for me to date and alot of the time I found it hard to be happy. You made my life difficult at times and you know it. I hated you somedays. You hurt me physically and mentally. You broke me and then you built me up and I was never the same. I do not resent you. I miss you.

When we started off, I was on eggshells. The stupid games, those ridiculous ongs, the fights, the sleepless nights, the constant texts. You drove me insane and I still stuck around. I gave you advice, I listened to your problems, I was there when all the others walked away. I gave everything you needed aswell as everything you wanted from me.

I just don't see how I ever negatively effect your life.