promise.

I'm trying so hard, I really am and I don't want you to think for a second that I'm forgetting about you because that isn't the case. I know you're not used to me taking off the way I have been lately and I know some nights you try and try and wait up for me. I'm not doing this on purpose I promise. It's all exciting and intoxicating and I know its taking a toll on you and everyone else for that matter. I will try so much harder from now I promise you.


It's hard trying to keep everyone happy. Sometimes I forget that my actions don't just affect me the affect those around me too. Change is always hard to accept, for me it was easy but I never stopped to think about me changing my habits and patterns would effect those around me. I guess I now feel a bit selfish. I have to try alot harder.