Here it is. all in black and white. prt2

June 11, 2009 - Thursday

Here it is. all in black and white.
Hate is a very strong word.
Do you HATE me?
Or do you miss me?
Something tells me its the latter, I bet your spewing that I waltzed back onto the scene... Isn't it killing you that he let me back into his world? I bet your totally mad that its him and not you..
What have you got to say to me? It's been three whole years.. I'm sure that enough time to think. Did you think I'd always stay? That I would be there forever? You taught me that forever doesn't exsist.
I love how you've supposedly forgotten me, gotten over me.. but do you remember that it was me? It was always me.. I was there when it started.. for girlfriend number and girlfriend number 2.. I just hope you don't forget that we we're inseperable. Best of friends, best of enemies. I miss you.



I'm never going to forget certain people. Even though majority of these people are no longer a part of my life. I might not be the greatest person, but to these people I was at one point in time. I miss those days alot. I miss those people alot.


I wrote this on my myspace blog back in June 2009. It's kinda funny because as much as I was gloating I was still annoyed that I was only able to walk back in to one persons life and not two. Since then I've walked back out of this persons life. Thats life unfortunately.. interestingly enough though he was in my dream last night and it was amazing. Usually I like to be here in reality but last night was one of the few times I could have stayed in dream land.

Hate is a strong word, I firmly believe that it is the equal opposite to love. Apparently I am still hated, but only because I was loved. I guess I take comfort in that.

I still miss those people, I still remember them all. I will not forget those who made me who I am, who shared the highs and the lows with me.