18.

I'm about to turn 18 in a few months.
No alot of people look forward to this, but I'm not overly excited.. Nothing will be different other than the fact that now if i want to buy cancer stick and posion I can legally.

I'm about to turn another year older. I'm just going to make more mistakes and feel more pain. I'm going to watch people come and go from my life and I dare say I'll still be miserable by the time i turn 19.

My 18th itself will be just another day. 9hrs at work followed by a 10hr day. I'll be surrounded by people when I don't want to be. There's alot of obligation that comes with turning 18, I really wish my parents had stopped for two seconds and asked me exactly what I wanted to do. Because I don't want to be surrounded by 100+ people, drinking, eating, at night. I don't want to be out until 12pm or later, I don't want people buying me drinks expecting me to drink them. I don't want any of that. But it's what I'm getting.

I love how people just make desicions for me, make assumptions about what I want. It really shows just how much those who have been around me the longest, and the most often don't know me at all. Stop pretending. Stop assuming. Get to know me.