sabotage.

self sabotage.

Sabotage according to google - "Sabotage is a deliberate action aimed at weakening another entity through subversion, obstruction, disruption, or destruction"

I don't get why we sabotage ourselves. I understand trying to sabotage something or someone else but not ourselves. Yet here we are again and you're screwing it all up. You got what you wanted!! You got it all and there was no karma for your actions. You're never going to learn and I still don't see why you're doing this? One day you are going to grow up to be a very lonely old man.

It's funny this has come up again because tonight at dinner I was told "not to sabotage it" It the first time I have ever had someone say that to me. Self sabotage... it's such a bizarre thing it's messing with my mind a bit.