Ok so I'm pretty much over christmas.
I made the choice to stop consuming alcohol, its a choice i made on my own, and its a desicion i intend to stick to, yet no-one and I mean no-one believes I can do it! Get off my fucking case and let me live my life the way i want to. Alcohol free! I got shot glasses AND a cocktail set for christmas.. what part of I'm not drinking alcohol anymore do these people not understand?
From the very first mouthful I can feel that crap consume my body, take over and impare my brain. I don't like the feeling, I don't like losing control. I hate when my words are slurred and run together, I hate not seeing clearly and feeling all giddy. To me alcohol is like a toxic substance that takes over. That's the part I hate.
My family is a family of drinkers. Walk in on christmas day half a bucket, not bottle but bucket of champagne punch is gone... I accept the fact that alcohol is a socialising agent in my household, but just because I accept it does not mean I condone it or that I understand it. It frustrates me that even my family has no faith in me, they all think I'm going to fail. Well it's not going to happen.
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