i think i'm everything you hate.

But I don't care.
I am not here to be loved by everyone.
You know its funny.. hate that is...
Hate is such a passionate emotion, it's right up there with love. There is a reason they are opposites, they are equal on the opposite ends of the scale. it's like day and night.
anyways thats not the pont I was trying to make.
It's funny how one person can hate everything about you, especially when three years ago they loved everything about you. Its a full 180 so to speak.
How does one harbour such hatred for such a long time? How does that emotion not waver, or subside after time, and if love is the equal opposite to hate can the same thing be said for love?
Can you fall in love with someone and still years later love them, not be "in love" with them, but still hold a place for them in your heart?

Its like a bond if you like, like an undeniable attraction and chemistry. If you can go years apart and then suddenly be so instantly drawn back to this one person is that what you call or class as love?
Its a funny thing, this chemistry that exists between people...
It's like time stopped, and yes I know we moved off course and headed in different paths, but when they crossed again it was like nothing changed...
Its a bizarre concept, and a comfort too. To know that even after everything that went wrong, all the hurt, and all the time away from one another that upon returning it was like those three years didn't mean a thing, didn't change a thing.

Well I got a bit off track from what I was orginally going to say, but oh well that's life I suppose. At some point you're going to go off track. If you had of asked me when I was 12 where I was going with my life, which direction I was headed I would never have said I'd be here now. When 14 My answer would be entirely Wdifferent to when I was 12, and Now as well, that was a scary time though and I'm so glad I didn't follow the path i'd chosen. I don't like the path I'm walking down right now, but who knows where it will lead.. in the past I've always landed somewhere interesting. Here's hoping history repeats itself this time.

Peace, Love and all that Jazz baby.
xx