God, please help me.

If only I could meet someone new, someone to excite and inspire me. I crave an intellectual conversation, even any kind of a conversation. I'm desperate to confide in someone, to have someone that reignites my passion. I'm not saying someone to cheat with, I'm talking about someone who I can build a connection with that transcends sex and love. Maybe I'm asking too much, maybe I'm full of false hope. God help me become that person. Help me achieve my dream. Help me fill my life with secrets, desires, confessions and above all else Excitement. God help me be the person I really am, the person I want to get back to being. Otherwise chances are I'll be an alcoholic by the time I'm 21.