An open letter to my dearest friend.

Sometimes words fail us, and it's these failing words that have driven us apart so here my friend is an open letter to you, full of all the things I want to say, all the questions I want ask...

 Let me start by saying that I am proud of you. I don't tell you that enough. I also believe in you, I have more faith in you than I have in myself. Everyone suffers set backs, right now you're going through an adjustment period, it will end. It will get better and you'll find your groove again. 

Secretly I'm thrilled that you're coming home, I'm also scared. I miss you, I want to see you again, I want to touch you and hold you and I want to kiss you and I'd never tell you that. I want to talk to you, I want to drive around in the moonlight and spill my secrets to you. I want you to put some excitement back into my life.

                                 "let me come over I would tell you secrets nobody knows."

  I worry about you everyday, I stress about you, I just want you to be ok. I want you to be happy. That's all I'll ever want. I think you never really got over her, and I think it holds you back from opening yourself up to the possibility of finding someone who you love and can have a future with. You're also young so I guess it's not a huge drama either. I think there's someone out there who will take your breath away and never give it back.

 Are you really ok with coming back? Are things going to go back the way they were before you left? Do you resent me? What's next for you? Where do you see yourself going? Do you think less of me? Do you care? Can we go for a drive? Can we pretend we're 16 again? Are you really ok? Where is your head at? Do you miss it? Will you let me in? These are just the questions that came to mind, I'm sure there are others like "where you jealous? Why did you make it so damn difficult? Am I an easy target?" I could be here all night writing out questions, but you and I both know it will take me to a dark place and I'm not going to do that.

 I've missed you like you wouldn't believe and I just hope to god you and I can be as close as we were when we first became friends, I want to be so painfully honest with you and I hope to god you trust me enough to do the same, and that you want to let me back in. We've come along way but we still have so far to go.  

Together we can and will conquer everything life throws our way.

 I've got your back.