oh piano man there's a duck in the room.

so I haven't blogged in a while.
Some big things have happened over the past few months. For one I have a boyfriend. He is amazing.

I guess I haven't blogged for one reason and one reason only. Before I didn't care. I didn't have to care but now, now I do. And i'm trying to be careful with my words and my thoughts.

But I have a few things that need to be said.

-- I can't do this anymore, I can't stand the silence, tonight we barely spoke 10 words to one another, and yes.. i've noticed that you can't look at me anymore and it breaks my heart because i trusted you with everything, my secrets, my thoughts, my dreams and my mistakes and you can't even look at me. Am I a bad person? Are you hurting? Are you jealous? I just want an answer, I want the truth. Yes. Things changed, they did but I'm happy now, can't you be happy for me?

-- I miss you. I have a thousand things I could say to you but that's the most important. I miss the good old days. I miss 4am chats, I miss knowing everything that was going on and I miss my best friend. You used to know me better than I know my self and these days I feel like we're complete strangers.

I have nothing left to say.