4 words, 10 letters and a profound truth.

It's funny how you know me so well.

"can you do it?" 4 words, 10 letters and a bucket load of truth. Every now and then someone throws me a question that I wasn' expecting, That I have to sit and think about. The answer to this one is No. I don't think I can do it. It's so incredibly difficult to walk away.. even harder than being able stay. I wonder how I got to this point, where you are so much a part of my life and a part of me that I can't let go, that I can't walk away. You are toxic, You hurt me yet you're still here. He told me to walk away fom you and I should have listened to him. But I didn't and now I don't know if I can. You're like my addiction. You are my sanity and occasionally my insanity too. At the end of the day what scares me most is that I don't love you. I can see you for you and I can see what you do to me and yet I still can't let go. I don't know if I should even try.

Maybe it's fear... fear of change, fear of being alone, fear of losing... I can't believe that I'm back in this situation. I can't believe you wouldn't fight to keep me here. We're so different now, yet we're still us. And it's that us that needs to go.

I never thought I'd be the one who wanted to walk. I always thought it would be you. And if it wasn't you then we'd be in each others lives for ever. Now I sit here trying to decide. Does the positive out-weigh the negative? Is it time to move on? Can I do it?