:(

you know I hate sharing my bed, you know I don't sleep very well when there is someone else in my bed.. and last night when I couldn't sleep I realised I miss having you in my bed.

I need someone to inspire me again.

not for a second.

Don't be sad that it's over. Be thankful for the precious time you had together, smile at the memories. All too quickly things come to an end. If you dwell on the past, on the mistakes and on the time you'll never move forward. Life is short and nothing last forever. Just think.. imagine if you'd never got to experience the highs, the laughs, the memories, the photos, the hours, the days, the weeks, the months, the years.

I'll do it all again, there will be someone else and our paths will continue to go in opposite directions. Maybe, just maybe our paths might cross again, don't cling to hope, don't dwell on the past. LIVE.

It's over, It's sad but eventually there will be more good times, more memories to create... with someone else. Life keeps going, it does and look at this as a challenge or an opportunity or both. Be positive and be thankful. Never take anything for granted... appreciate the little moments.

You can't experience the highs without the lows. I would never ever want to play it safe. For things to go in a straight line. I want to see the dips and the spikes.

I've lost or left alot of people in my life, but at the end of the day I think I am one of the luckiest people alive. To this day I still love every single one of those people and I wouldn't change a thing. The good times outweigh the hurt and the loss.

This is life. Start living it

N'oublions jamais le bon vieux temps.

So one day I woke up and decided to walk away. I decided to turn my back, leave and not look back. The next day I woke up and went what the hell have I just done?

Removed. Deleted. Unfollowed.

I would like someone to explain why someone does this... How someone can just suddenly walk away from their best friend, from their rock? I think I'm still coming to terms with what I've done. I don't regret it, I just can't believe I did it.

For everyone who knows me, I mean really knows me, you know exactly the kind of relationship we had. The constant ups and downs. I think actually I believe that we were so much a part of one another that I stopped being my own person. It's scary standing here now. I can count my friends on one hand.. that's not a bad thing, I just can't remember the last time I was able to say that.

There was no fight, no harsh words, no realisations, no painful truths. Just a feeling.

I was so wrapped up in your world. Our world. That at some point I lost myself. I stopped thinking for myself to an extent. Now I'm a little lost.

So to everyone still in my life, everyone still around please bare with me whilst I put myself together again and find my own two feet to stand on.

Tonight marks a new chapter in my life. A chapter with out you.

4 words, 10 letters and a profound truth.

It's funny how you know me so well.

"can you do it?" 4 words, 10 letters and a bucket load of truth. Every now and then someone throws me a question that I wasn' expecting, That I have to sit and think about. The answer to this one is No. I don't think I can do it. It's so incredibly difficult to walk away.. even harder than being able stay. I wonder how I got to this point, where you are so much a part of my life and a part of me that I can't let go, that I can't walk away. You are toxic, You hurt me yet you're still here. He told me to walk away fom you and I should have listened to him. But I didn't and now I don't know if I can. You're like my addiction. You are my sanity and occasionally my insanity too. At the end of the day what scares me most is that I don't love you. I can see you for you and I can see what you do to me and yet I still can't let go. I don't know if I should even try.

Maybe it's fear... fear of change, fear of being alone, fear of losing... I can't believe that I'm back in this situation. I can't believe you wouldn't fight to keep me here. We're so different now, yet we're still us. And it's that us that needs to go.

I never thought I'd be the one who wanted to walk. I always thought it would be you. And if it wasn't you then we'd be in each others lives for ever. Now I sit here trying to decide. Does the positive out-weigh the negative? Is it time to move on? Can I do it?