Friday night, speeding cars and a setting sun.
Still water over by the wall.
A perfect summers night
Under the stars, leaves dancing on trees.
Hidden from sight, Hidden from sound.
A hug, A kiss,
A little more, A lot more
Romance wasted on the lustful.
Perfection spent on the ungreatful.
The lover of hate
The hater of love
A coupling unmatched by any other.
28.2.10
Birdie.
Hey there birdie,
why so blue?
why so green?
What do you know, what have you seen?
Your chirp isn't as loud
Your song isn't as sweet.
So tell me little birdie, what do you know?
You seem so sad sitting there alone
Above the world
Looking on down
You know whats coming.
You know whats around the corner.
So please Birdie
Forewarn me
Of the horrors yet to come
Please little birdie
Forewarn me
Of the heartbreak that lies ahead.
why so blue?
why so green?
What do you know, what have you seen?
Your chirp isn't as loud
Your song isn't as sweet.
So tell me little birdie, what do you know?
You seem so sad sitting there alone
Above the world
Looking on down
You know whats coming.
You know whats around the corner.
So please Birdie
Forewarn me
Of the horrors yet to come
Please little birdie
Forewarn me
Of the heartbreak that lies ahead.
25.2.10
Name Game.
"Queen of Flings" those were his exact words.
Usually I don't care what people say about me, I gave up on that a long long time ago. I decided I was going to be myself and take the good with the bad so why now are his words haunting me? Why are those 3 words making me question myself and everything I am?
First things first what is a fling? How do you define a fling? There are no rules, no boundaries, no time constraints so how do you know if it's a fling or maybe its an open relationship or possibly even an unofficial relationship... I don't like the term fling.. I don't have "flings" I just don't date.
This label really threw me a bit. I'm in no way shy about my life and the lifestyle I choose to lead, but I'm not a promiscuious person, even if I was I still wouldnt care what people, actually most people think. I'm confused as to why I care about this person having this perception of me. Especially considering this person knows very little about my life and relies on gossip for his information.
Is a fling about sex? And where do friends with benefits fit into this equation? Wow, I have a lot of questions don't I... I'd like to know people's opinions of flings and their definitons too.
Queen of flings ayy, well it'd not a title I wear with pride, opposite actually. Because what does that say about me as a person? It doesnt say much at all to be honest. When this was said to me I honestly felt like I'd been hit in the face, maybe it's because it was such a left feild comment or maybe because of who said it, at the end of the day it didn't leave me feeling too flash and has been playing on my mind since monday. (It's now Thursday.) When life throws lemons I guess...
Usually I don't care what people say about me, I gave up on that a long long time ago. I decided I was going to be myself and take the good with the bad so why now are his words haunting me? Why are those 3 words making me question myself and everything I am?
First things first what is a fling? How do you define a fling? There are no rules, no boundaries, no time constraints so how do you know if it's a fling or maybe its an open relationship or possibly even an unofficial relationship... I don't like the term fling.. I don't have "flings" I just don't date.
This label really threw me a bit. I'm in no way shy about my life and the lifestyle I choose to lead, but I'm not a promiscuious person, even if I was I still wouldnt care what people, actually most people think. I'm confused as to why I care about this person having this perception of me. Especially considering this person knows very little about my life and relies on gossip for his information.
Is a fling about sex? And where do friends with benefits fit into this equation? Wow, I have a lot of questions don't I... I'd like to know people's opinions of flings and their definitons too.
Queen of flings ayy, well it'd not a title I wear with pride, opposite actually. Because what does that say about me as a person? It doesnt say much at all to be honest. When this was said to me I honestly felt like I'd been hit in the face, maybe it's because it was such a left feild comment or maybe because of who said it, at the end of the day it didn't leave me feeling too flash and has been playing on my mind since monday. (It's now Thursday.) When life throws lemons I guess...
24.2.10
so long my friend.
Today I have to say goodbye to my bestfriend who happens to be moving to england. Which got me thinking about goodbyes and which are better, the ones you plan for or the ones that are a suprise? Either way saying goodbye sucks, losing people is always always hard but you know it's life. It allows us to grow and change. Its crucial.
I've said goodbye to alot of people in my time, which I know is rather short but at the end of the day I'd never ever trade the experience I've had with these people. Letting go is the hardest part of saying goodbye.. why do we hang on for so long after someone is gone?
Here's your choice you can let go and reflect on the experiences you've had or hang on for dear life and delve deeper and deeper into delusion. There is no such thing as a clean break, emotions prevent that. Wether we are angry or hurt or sad when the break first occurs emotions keep us attached for a period of time.
They say Time heals all wounds and fixes all breaks but does it really? It could be a broken heart, a broken friendship even a family breakdown... when something like that breaks can we ever really fix it or will pieces always be missing? Picture this - a glass vase falls and smashes on the ground, it's in a billion little tiny pieces.. is there anyway it can be perfectly restored? I honestly don't believe so, what I do believe is that although the old pieces are gone and there will be little holes, new pieces form and build onto what's there, changing what originally was there into something more...
Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm right. Maybe there is no way of really knowing.
I've said goodbye to alot of people in my time, which I know is rather short but at the end of the day I'd never ever trade the experience I've had with these people. Letting go is the hardest part of saying goodbye.. why do we hang on for so long after someone is gone?
Here's your choice you can let go and reflect on the experiences you've had or hang on for dear life and delve deeper and deeper into delusion. There is no such thing as a clean break, emotions prevent that. Wether we are angry or hurt or sad when the break first occurs emotions keep us attached for a period of time.
They say Time heals all wounds and fixes all breaks but does it really? It could be a broken heart, a broken friendship even a family breakdown... when something like that breaks can we ever really fix it or will pieces always be missing? Picture this - a glass vase falls and smashes on the ground, it's in a billion little tiny pieces.. is there anyway it can be perfectly restored? I honestly don't believe so, what I do believe is that although the old pieces are gone and there will be little holes, new pieces form and build onto what's there, changing what originally was there into something more...
Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm right. Maybe there is no way of really knowing.
16.2.10
Success
Success. defined as "an event that accomplishes its intended purpose"
But what is success? or more to the point how do we measure our success? Success is different to each individual and with that being said how exactly do we know if we are infact successful?
A dear friend of mine told me he feels he needs to be successful in life, but why change? Success comes in many shapes and forms so why are we so intent on measuring our success with money? I'm not going to change so that someone else can say I'm successful, how do they know?
I like to think that success is the feeling of accomplishment, it doesnt need a monetary value. How do you measure an addicts success with money? you don't...
And what if you spend all your time trying to be "successful" according to someone else's definition and your life is suddenly cut short? Success is something that comes with everything you do. Big or small each week maybe even each day is full of little successes. So don't forget to take in the whole picture.
But what is success? or more to the point how do we measure our success? Success is different to each individual and with that being said how exactly do we know if we are infact successful?
A dear friend of mine told me he feels he needs to be successful in life, but why change? Success comes in many shapes and forms so why are we so intent on measuring our success with money? I'm not going to change so that someone else can say I'm successful, how do they know?
I like to think that success is the feeling of accomplishment, it doesnt need a monetary value. How do you measure an addicts success with money? you don't...
And what if you spend all your time trying to be "successful" according to someone else's definition and your life is suddenly cut short? Success is something that comes with everything you do. Big or small each week maybe even each day is full of little successes. So don't forget to take in the whole picture.
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