secret.

Everyday I struggle with monogamy. To begin with it was easy, but now it's not. Now it's a constant struggle. Part of me hopes that you cheat so I'm not the bad guy. How messed up is that?! I don't always think that, but sometimes I do. Sometimes I wish I'd left when I was going too. Sometimes I wish I had the strength to take a break and reassess. I'm not sure that I'm still in love. And if this is love, if this is as good as it gets, count me out.