rant.

They say home is where the heart is.. but I seem to have lost my heart. Where is home? Is home with the boy who I unknowingy gave my heart too? Is it with the family I left behind for my own selfish ventures? Did I leave it on the side of the road somewhere? Or maybe I threw it up in the park the other night? Where is my heart?

I'm having a rather hard time atthe moment, I probably wouldn't readily admit that to people, not those closest to me anyway. I made an impulse desicion to pick up my life and move 3 hours away. At the time it seemed brilliant, but I'm struggling now. Yes I love my job, but my job is my life right now. That can't be healthy. So I guess my question is why did I do it? Why did I pick up my life and leave? Why do we make rushed choices that effect our lives so greatly?

I suppose there's a boy that's adding to my confusion right about now and I'm once again left wondering about friends with benefits... can it work? or more to the point how long can it last? See I am a strong believer in Friends with benefits, I do really think it can work.. but when does it go from being friends with benefits to more? How do I get out of this grey area between FWB and a relationship? How did I get there in the first place?

I'll tell you how I got there in the first place, Mixed messages. I HATE MIXED MESSAGES. Just be straight with me and I will be stright with you. Simple. Dont talk about wanting a girlfriend after we've just had sex. Don't say here you should probably take this, I'm not sleeping with anyone else... Then say wouldn't it be funny if I dated your sister... Just be straight up with me.

right. there is my little rant for tonight. Any questions?
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