dreamer.

Dreams. They scare me. Alot.

To dream that you are in possession of or taking drugs, signifies your need for a "quick fix" or from an escape from reality. You may be turning to a potentially harmful alternative as an instant escape from your problems. Ask yourself why you need the drugs. What do you hope the drugs will achieve for you?


Its kinda funny just how true the above statement is. It scares me. It scares me alot. My bad habits will be the death of me. I tried to beat them, but too easily I gave up. Its crazy, I have started smoking again. I love the feeling of the nicotine rushing to my brain, making me light headed. Its like nothing in the world matters. It's stupid I know. But I don't know what else to do.

sometimes putting ourselves first is hard.
Give me the strength to do so.

1 is the loneliest number.

I wish there was just one person who cared. Just one person.

this weekend

Thursday
Work 6am-4pm
Hanging out with Chris
Maybe see Dylan
Friday
Work 6:30am-4pm
Coffee with Sinead
Movies with my family
Saturday
Work 11:30am-8pm
Sunday
Work 7:30am-3:30pm


Yep, My weekend is going to be awesome FML

My words have no depth, My thoughts have no meaning. I fail

How do we hold on?

We stand atop this mess
we call life,
rubble forming undertoe
foundations crumbling
changing all we know.

Everyday we treck onwards
forever trying to reach greater heights,
crawling desperately
clinging mercilessly
to the fading lights.

Like a mirror made of glass
or bottle full of booze
all that we are
all that we know
is strewn near and far.

We are not kings,
we are barely men
we are nothing more
than skeletons
adorning the wreckage upon the shore.

meh

Why do we aim to please other people?
And don't say "I don't try and please anyone else" because at some point we all do, or we do something that we know will make someone else happy. So why do we do it? And why is other people's happiness more important than our own?