Loneliness is a funny thing. It consumes you when you least expect it, surrounded by so many yet I feel like I have no one to turn too. It's bizarre. I'm in a relationship, I'm in love. It goes against everything i'd convinced myself that I believed in. I used to think Life was complicated but funnily enough it was that complication that made life simple. Whoever said complication was a bad thing is sorely mistaken.
I guess before I go any further I should say or repeat one thing. I'm in love, and I am incredibly lucky.
Tonight, I feel like I don't know where to stand, what to say, where to go or what to do. Before monogamy, I always knew my place, I knew what to say, when to say it and I always knew exactly what to do. I knew what not to say, and I knew how to not hurt or antagonise people. But I never had to walk on eggshells, I could say anything and have a conversation where I didn't have to watch what I was saying because I wasn't in love. Lust is a very different thing.
